Posts always sound more spectacular in my head, but when it’s actually time to write them down, I always forget the minor details that made it a masterpiece and just repeat the half-constructed skeleton. Of course, there’s always the problem of not wanting to spill so many details that I sound like a self-important jerk fishing for attention and pity.
I’ve been in an unhealthy place mentally in the past few months- or over the past year; I’m not really sure exactly when the downturn in my self-esteem began. Blogging has become more and more of a chore than a hobby, often forgetting to post something until a mere hour until bed, at which point I’ve become so exhausted that all I can do is a few photo editing tricks. That explains the recent decline in post quality. Of course, it really doesn’t help that I almost suffered a mental breakdown at school today and just really need a break from as many responsibilities as I can so I can get my life back on track.
I don’t want this place to turn into another Twitter where I was obsessively checking my follower count and worrying about long hiatuses in which people decided that I wasn’t worth their time and unfollowed me. Blogging is and always should be about the fun of sharing thoughts instantly all over the world first and everything else second. The magic of it all has left me. I need to get it back.
I’ve decided to take a hiatus from posting on this blog for two weeks and devote all my writing time to writing my next book, A Shatter Down The Hall, and editing Me Before You. Please don’t unfollow me- I promise I’ll be back with the best content this blog has ever seen. I just need some time to think.
I’m not even sure myself anymore. There are too many boxes in my room for me to think of much of anything, too many papers left undone in my folder, too many weeks of school left until early release for the summer and I can focus on finding myself again. I seem to have run off for somewhere a little more hopeful, a little less desolate. Have you seen me?
It seems I’ve been forgetting a lot of things lately. Forgetting to edit Me Before You, which has been sitting in my cloud storage for a few months now. Forgetting to complete my French lessons on Memrise, making me lose a 25-day streak. Forgetting to play nice with the indolent and chatty girls at my table in health class, instead choosing to ignore them outright. Forgetting to maintain my Facebook meme page…
Pretty much procrastinating on every single one of my responsibilities, and I hate it.
But hey, I’ve got a new book I’m writing- no wait, writer’s block has already stricken that one as well. I changed the perspective from first to third person, which helped a bit, but the motivation still isn’t there.
It is actually raining outside and I am on the verge of crying because I have wanted rain for so long. The wind is whispering of wanderlust again, just as it always has, as it always will be long after I have vacated this place.
The driveway is wet, and I do not have to worry about ice forming to threaten a safe travel tomorrow. Maybe the grass will start growing again- by the time it becomes a more lively shade of green again, I won’t live here, but maybe the next inhabitant will enjoy it.
In the previous post in this series, several laws of nature and Congress were bypassed and shattered, I got sued by Intelligent Systems for creating abominations of nature, and the internet deleted itself.
Actually, only one of those things happened, but you gotta clickbait people somehow.
The story starts with a cloudy day, part raining and part just all out crappy part of winter with slush everywhere. Procrastinating from my homework, as usual, I decided to boot up my abused copy of Fates and see how far I could go with support farming and only playing with weak characters.
Then came along a bootleg Marth, a sad copy of a character from a previous FE game that I only played in short snippets in a poorly-coded emulator. He had no chances of living up to his predecessors, bootleg or otherwise. There simply wasn’t enough gold in the bank to hire either Vane or Estella, Einherjars of previous main characters whose save files had been completed long ago, so his pitiful existence continued as he dragged his sorry party through the game.
Until save editing arrived, and he was finally able to transition into the hero-king he identified as, but it came at the cost of no longer being able to wield a dragonstone or the special sword his genocidal adoptive father made for him.
True, thanks to a copied global stats file from the internet, he could have just recruited the real Marth into his party, but no- that would require work and copious amounts of gold.
Fortunately- or otherwise, depending on the viewpoint- the game started to glitch out at this point, sometimes functioning as a copy of Revelation, the third path of the game only purchasable as DLC, which I hadn’t gotten as I am broke and only have $6 remaining in my Nintendo account. This caused some… questionable effects- but hey, I’m not complaining. Free stuff, amirite?
Remember the Einherjar from last post I didn’t get a picture of who I turned into a nonfunctioning kitsune? Well, this time, they mutated into a silent dragon. I’m not sure if that’s a fin or a gigantic part of some other model waving in the foreground, but it certainly wasn’t there when checking other character models.
Thanks to hex editing, which I finally figured out how to do via a menu option inside of the save file twiddler, and a list of character IDs, I edited several low-level units that I wasn’t planning on using ever again in that particular save file to gain characters exclusive to the Birthright and Revelation game paths. One of those, Izana, was somehow able to form an S support to a female main character in a different save file and the game even played the Live2D animation that occurs when the main character gets married, further confirming my suspicions that the game contains data for all character regardless of if they appear in that particular path or not- but what for? Normally, on a non-hacked save file, the party never comes across Izana in battle since he is kidnapped and temporarily replaced by Zola, a boss in the only Conquest chapter Izana appears in.
Another character I added in, Ryoma, appeared in my castle just like a normal unit once I added him in, acting as if his appearance in Nohr, the country he wholeheartedly hates as its king killed his mother, was a completely normal thing. Nothing is amiss here.
In addition, the addition of these characters tricking the game into unlocking non-Conquest-specific content also enabled me to access the other three castle styles, unusable in Conquest- they don’t even show up in the menu.
Of course, this wouldn’t be a proper sick radical World War 3 trick without more weird reclassings, so here’s a male main character Einherjar made into a shrine maiden, a fancy healer normally only found in the Birthright and Revelation paths.